To many Cooks spoil the Soup . . .

and to many boys in my heart spoil my dreams.

I need freedom to use my mind, to learn as much as possible and to become as competent as possible, by accumulating information and skills. Life is something to be explained. I need to find the meaning and significance on my own. I want my life to matter. I want to discover my true self and make a difference in this world. There is a thirst for adventure but I rarely take the time for the slow pleasures of life. I am a perfectionist and some consider me a “workaholic” but what others consider ‘work’ I think of as ‘play’. I’m a curious one; I love to learn new things. Knowledge is power, there is always something else out there to study or discover, it’s the only motivation I need. I learn best from reading and independent research. I’m very exact in problem solving, which is probably why I’m so good at video and computer games. Although, I tend to over think situations the goal, eventually, is accomplished. Once that happens I lose interest and move on.
I tend to make decisions with my head rather than my heart, so I come off as unemotional and insensitive, but my feelings run deep and strong. I’m not known for romantic gestures or self-expression. I’m very private about my thoughts and feelings. I seek unity with others and sometimes lose myself in what they want me to be. That’s why I love my alone time. People get attached to me then I’m gone. Although I believe in true love, perfect forever love. I bring drama, but with it warmth and empathy.
As a child, I was communicative, artistic and imaginative, always asking “Why?” Now I have very little respect for authority, and reach my own conclusions. I hate repeating myself so once I’ve made my feelings clear it’s difficult for me to continue to express myself to someone. That’s probably why I get my feelings hurt a lot. Sometimes I’m too sensitive to others feelings, I have a knack for making others feel comfortable and accepted. I’m hardest on myself, I set very high standards of performance and expect and sometimes demand the same level of competence in others. My decisions are objective, using logic and reason.

Things that frustrate me to no end: routines, small talk, violence, plagiarism, illogical arguments, social functions and last but not least incompetence.

Things I love to do to frustrate others: not being sociable, blowing up when overly criticized, insensitive, ignoring the rules, lack of follow-through, impatient, lack understanding in emotional issues, impulse buying, not going with the flow, independent, argumentative, and sometimes arrogant.

If you want to start a fight with me here is how you start problems: incompetence, emotional displays, make a hasty decision without information, negative criticism, force me to speech before I’ve had the opportunity to think it through, crush my independence, bore me, or keep me on a need-to-know basis.