Am I lost forever?

I could not with stand another trial. My emotional state is weakend. I have been deprived of emotional stimulation and love. Im not looking for a one night stand with a quick and temporary emotional healing of lust. Im searching for life long happiness; love that fills my soul with joy not darkness and dispair. If I were to endure one more heart ache my soul would be ripped to pieces. To be deprived and drained of your emotions, ideas and passion is an extremely exhausting process that leaves you cold, empty and bitter. I must find a way to get my soul back from wence it was stripped of me. The person I thought I was has disappeared and what is left is unrecognizable even to those who know me best. When this tribulation is over will i be able to get my mind back or will all those torturous and cruel things that have been inflicted apon me change me for the worse?